golden afternoons
Getting through the last couple of weeks of winter by revelling in its golden afternoons. I’ve been hibernating due to the cold, but also because I am spending a lot more time painting to prepare for shows in April. I noticed I get restless and lose energy between 1 and 3pm, not every single day but it does happen often. I would try and fight this feeling but it only made it stronger and I would feel worse. I would get thoughts like I wasn’t working hard enough, like the day was slipping away, and general feelings of heightened anxiety. I eventually learned to surrender to the moment. Now once I feel it coming I put down what I’m doing and read a book or have a late lunch. I do something relaxing and useful for myself and it instantly feels like a curse lifting off; the feeling just goes away. I find myself full of renewed energy and I get back to painting.
Reading: Kafka on the Shore by Haruki Murakami
Thinking about: April
Prioritizing: Walking more